Saturday, September 22, 2007
hmms..
todae was uber tiring!
ok firstly met lynno at jp.
she wanted to get nike bag for jai as his b'dae coming soon so yea..
initially joyce was supposed to tag along but pathetically she called it off
bcos of some reasons which i shant mention here..
so we went to vivo..walk2
and went to nike shop.
urgh!
dis is pathetic..we wnted to get the nike bag bt we werent sure which one will be nice.
for him.
so we cracked our heads whether to get the backpack or the pouch.
which i found very nice.the pouch i meant.
bt we still didnt make up our minds yet..so we went to harbourfront centre..
surveyed around and around..
in the end..we ended up at the nike shop again.
so we cracked our heads again for the 2nd time.
i got really worned out by den cos i seriously dont know what is his taste.
so we made up our mind and decided to get the backpack.
bt pathetically when we wanted to buy it.
the display piece was the last piece.
pathetic rights?!!
so we went to another nike outlet at bugis.
ar!this 1 another 1.
at bugis they only have the other colours.
we wnted the blur grey colour but there only blue yellow.
argh!!!
so we asked help from nizam n jojo.
and after thinking fpr at least 1/2 an hour we decied to get it.
so thats the whole shopping trip todae.
after that i met my aunts n ccousins at geylang to jalan2.
gawd.geylang was packed n loadded with people.
it was warm and squeezy.urfg.
bt it was fun of course!
who doesnt enjoy going to geylang??!
im nt elaborating nmore bout the geylang trip bt it was fine.
had a shrewd idea of what baju kurung i want this year :))
hmms.yea.
i have something else to say.
hmms..here it goes.
i'll keep it short.
i knew the first time wen u n him went home u fell for him.
i knew the time when u had a conversation with himwhen u were with me u fell 4 him.
i knew the time when u baked im those tarts u had fall for him.
i knew the first pictures u took with him, u had fall for him.
i knew the first turned u had for him, u had already loved him.
why didnt you gave me more time?
cant you see it??
maybe im not very expressive.bt cant you tell?
why would i go on a strict diet trying to loose weight?
why?
bcos i rmrbered you once called me fat.
and i thought, fine, i will change for her sake.
i will loose weight and hopefully she will be proud to have a bf like me.
bt i guess that would nvr happened.
i was wrong.maybe i was just too nice to do that for her.
well..yea..ur right..maybe its my fault.
i was the one who kept pushing u to adem
so whats my problem??
im just too naive.
i dont know why i didnt tell you.
i dont know why i couldnt open my mouth and just say dat. .... .
i dont know why.
i know that i had fell 4 u.
bt why didnt i tell the truth.
i was lying to my ownself.
i dont want to regret it.no.
its too late.its over.
well theres a reason for everything dat happens and i have found it out.
i now know why tw nvr wanted to accept me as a bf.
bcos i nvr wanted to accpt you as my gf.
well..what goes ard comes ard.
and karma do strikes.
and everyday it just rips open.agonisingly.
Labels: suicidal love.
what we could have been, Saturday, September 22, 2007.