Monday, April 30, 2007

i miss bitching around evryday.

i miss crapping.

i miss getting free dark choclates!

i miss evrything!

ps: theres a reason.

what we could have been, Monday, April 30, 2007.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

i was thinking about it again.

and again.and again.

nah!

i don't want to wait.

i dont want to think about it again.

once was enough.

and i have learnt my lesson.

not that ur not perfect.

u r.to me.

bt somethings are just hard.

it kills me when i think bout what hppned last time.

and i know u noe it too.

i just dont dare to take the risk.

nah!

i'm over it :)

ps:moving on.

what we could have been, Sunday, April 29, 2007.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

now is about 11.45 pm.just finished bathing

just came back from pa's company's dinner.at Marriotte Hotel.

gawd la.

it just makes me want to leave school as fast as possible.

well,u know how much i want to work ardy rites?

i'm just so excited u c.

cs i realli and i realli want to work in hotel line.

be a hotel manger or director.

okok.enough boud me and my dream career.

ya.so i had my dinner there.

nothing special about the food.all are common.

well,as my pa is the chairman of a company.i tend to attend dinners alot in my life.

so,i tend to compare.

and i fav one is at Meritius Mandrin.

the ballroom is beautiful and big.biggest in s'pore.

the food is fantastic.the service is efficient.the reception is the best.

okok.fine.i'm starting to boast over it.

er.ya.today was fine..

ssuppose to visit abg ap today.but it was canceled due to some reasons.

aniwae.

todays my cousin b'dae.

so as a cousin i should wish u rights?

HAPPY BURFDAE TO MD.HAIRL ISKANDAR BIN RAJIS!!

that's all folks! :))

what we could have been, Saturday, April 28, 2007.

Friday, April 27, 2007

its not as if i nvr tried.

i tried.

but it didnt turn oud the way i wntd.

i ask it once.and only once.

i wont bother to tink boud it again.

i wont bother to consider it again.

i'll definitely wont wait.

i have learnt.

i dun want to be near my past.

i want to move on.

it was just THE moment.

after for so long.

and u just threw it away.

i have no comments :)

i wont try again :)

*take note that things will nvr br the same again.*

p.s: my egoism overshadowed me.

what we could have been, Friday, April 27, 2007.

LES THESPIANS OF DRAMA INC.
i watched our syf video.and i cant seem to find theohsocalled "big" mistake we made.

i'm still not convince yet.we dun dsrve a cop.

we don't.

i was browsing through all these photos.its beautiful but on the other hand its heartbreaking to.

i shant rant animore.

i will continue on praying that drama will be a successful club.

i will still believe that we are excellent thespians.

excellent.

why must i care care boud wat the judges may think?

why must i bother to think so much boud dis?

why must i burst for this?

why must i realli get agitated ovr this?

why must i feel embarrassed over the results?

why must i care boud what bala thinks?

why?why?why?

at the end of the day.we dun gained anything from it.

we don't.

its all over.over.

over for them.

but rmbr.its just the beggining for us.

they will see us.someday.somewhere.somehow.

we'll definitely be back.

and when our faces are recognised by the public.

i'll make sure i throw it back at his face.

this maybe too ambitous.but i'll make sure.i'll make his choke up all his words.

get it over with ppl!

now, we'll focus on our mid-year exams and do well.

study hard peeps.

dun worry anymore.

fate has a way to work things out.

and it will.

for drama.

-lesthespianofdramainc-

what we could have been, Friday, April 27, 2007.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Listening to Secret Garden.its a song played on our last scene.have been listening to it for like so many many times today.it reminds me of so many things in drama.

infront of me.staring at me.a plushie.i rmbred.i kept this plushie for a long time. rmbr? it was our gift of appreciation from West Mall after our performance.our very first public performance.looking at it just makes me wana burst.

till now i still cnt accpt the fact that our result was a cop.i just cant.seriously, its rather unexpected and surprising.

i just dun understand why.i just don't.

how i wished this was all just a bad dream.i really wished.i really hope dat i will wake up soon and know that all this was just a dream.go to school and hear the good news.

how i really wished it is.

but sadly,its not a dream.its the reality.u noe why now sum ppl sae reality is a nightmare?

i realli dun understand.why?why?why?

our performance wasnt a cop performance for sure.it wasnt. it was more from jut a cop. but why?why dun the judges c dat?

i definitely think we dun dserve such award.we dun.all the effort we have put in 4 2 years and the result is a cop.its crap.its just unbelievable.

today, upon hearing the good news for dance.i was trying my best to be happy for them.for shirlynn.i tried my very best to stay calm and be happy tgt wit her.bt it was just too hard. knowing that the rest of the performing art groups attained a silver made the drama feel sosososo small.

but we aren't.we may be small to them but our hearts are sosososo much bigger than theirs.

my heart was aching upon knowing all this.

i kept asking myself.why?the whole time.it runs to my mind tills it drys.

i was just too exhausted to think boud it again just now.i was just too tired to think boud it.

i msgd yuen.

telling that we're really grateful to have her n G wit us.i thanked them again.n again. yuen kept telling me to tell the rest not to give up. who cares boud what result we got or wat others thik boud us.as long as we know we are good.we will awaes be.

yuen encouraged us to get involved in somethings outside school and soar on our own. work towards it and throw it back on bala's face.she told me that whatever it is.

we will always be most precious to her :)

i was realli glad to hear that and touched too.they have groomed us so well and now wen we looked at ourslves.we know we have changed to a bttr person.studen.thespian.

to ms wong,our dearest drama teacher i/c. we really feel sory for you. none of us expected this to happened.we know how much u love for dance.we know.and definitely it must have hurt you so much upon hearing what dance attained.we know u feel very depressed that your own cca didnt manage to attained anything.ms wong, i really dun noe how to make it up to you. crying ovr this now,its pointless.we all love you too ms wong.cheer up and jus hope evrything will be fine.

sighs.i just hope a miracle wud happen somehow.i just hope.i just hopeladyluck just blessed us and something miracle wud happen.i just hope so.how i wished there wud be re-judging again due to the unsatisfactory results and may we attained something.

i pray hard to god.

i just want to make the school proud of us.i just want drama to be

THE cca and not just any cca.i want drama to attained the 1st gold 4 the school.i want drma to prove evryone wrong.i just want drama to be a successful club.

may god bless us.

thisisnotheendofdramainc.

what we could have been, Thursday, April 26, 2007.

iguessitstoolateforthatnow:(

what we could have been, Thursday, April 26, 2007.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

the nite before tuesday.before i went to sleep.i held my hands up in the air closely to each other and prayed.i prayed for drama.i prayed for good results.i prayed that we'll get a silver or gold at least.

came to school as usual.walked on my own to school.thinking of so many things.

reached school, sat down at the gallery with adem. after the pledge taking ceremony, joyce n santhe came up to me and said, so u noe?i said no.joyce saud that bad news 4 drama as we got c.o.p. i dare not to believe it.i realli dare not. because, its almost impossible for us to get c.o.p. getting c.o.p didnt evn came across my mind.

so i didnt believe.

during lessons, so may things flash thru my mind. questions after questions. i was still unsure. did we realli get c.o.p. really, i was realli lost and i keep asking if we did get a c.o.p,

why? why?

i keep telling them..as if!. dun try to play tricks on me. i thought that they were putting up an act. seriusli. i tot they jus wanted to punk'd us. but then when i think again, why would mr bala joke ard wit us.

i dare not to believethe whole time. i keep telling myself, its all an act that was put up to make us suspense.

when the bell rang.my heart starts to beat faster than evr. as i walked to the drama room, my feet were trembling and my nerves were very tight.as i walked to the drama room, i pass by snnie.our stage manager.she shook hands wit me.that relieved me for a moment bcus i thought. ok dats a good sign isn't it?

i went down the stairs, and surprisingly, i saw g n yuen. they were standing by the railing. i dare not to say anything to them.i didnt evn say hi. yuen looked at me surprisingly.she watched me as i enter the drama room.i keep telling myself its just a prank.

when i stepped into the drama room. the room which had taught me the real meaning of drama. the room that had changed me into a bttr person.

the room that i used to act my hearts out.the room that i painted with passion.

as i enter the room, i saw fiqah and zaima sitting down already. by then they were already crying badly.i put my bag down.and attend to them.i ask them.

why? why are u crying?

listening to their explanation gaf me a shrewd idea of what our results will be. i tried not to believe yet.i wanted to hear the results from the teachers.

when evryrone settle down. g started his speech.

he was realli unhappy n not satisfied wit the way this whole thing is judged. i rmbred he said, we are definitely not a bronze standard.but when i know that we really got a c.o.p i was realli stoned.

i looked around me and i saw all my dramatians crying.they were crying.

i tried to hold on.but i just cant.my tears drop bit by bit.

it wasnt tears of dissapointment.but rather tears of anger when g told us the comments made by the judges.

i really was broken down into pieces.

i kept asking myself why?why?why?this is crap.its impossible. our performance is not a c.o.p it wasnt.it cn nvr be.

when i turned to my right.i saw ms wong crying as much as we did. she was crying tgt wit us. she feel for us.evn though she nvr had a chance to really c us grow. she cried 4 us.

i really was so touched by her. i cried evn more. yuen cried too.

as ms wong gaf her speech.i didnt quite listen as i was too touched.listening to her words made me feel veryveyrvery touched.i rmbr she once said that definitely we will get a silver at least. she was realli confident and she really put high hopes on us. but then...haix.

i thought for once we cn make our instructors, teachers, principal and the school proud but then eventually.we didnt manage to make the school proud.

i was realli disspointed over myslf.then, how about our juniors?

drama will be closed down and where will they go to?

i realli regret.

they wont have the chance to experience syf. they dun haf a chance to evn be play an act.

i realli feel bad for them.as a senior i feel as if i have failed my duty and responsibility.

we didnt manage to save the future of drama.

but whatever it is.i know that all dramatians are proud of themselves. no 1 else know how much we werked.we werked our butts off for like since sec 2. they will nvr understand us. but we know we did a good job.

the judges just judge us within that 20 mins.drama is very subjective.if they dun like it.they will not like it.

but dramatians. dun feel too dishearted ovr this.as g said theres a reason for evrything dat happens.just leave it to fate as yuen awaes said.

but i promise one thing dramatians. we will save drama. evn though mr bala wants to close drama down.we will find a way to save drama.we wont seperate.we cn awaes have a new club. theres many possible alternative that we can suggest to the school.i promise that as a vice president of drama club.i'll make sure that i will try my very best to save drama inc.

i promise.

what we could have been, Wednesday, April 25, 2007.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

hehs.i noe its been quite a long time i nvr post anything so yarhs.ok.basically wad hppened dis week was fine.maths & geo test was cool..i had not much troubles doing it.yesterdae went to ivans b'dae party.he booked a chalet for us to stay in but i nvr sleep over arhs.the rest slept there; most of which are chinese bois.okok.bt i had a lot of hesistation b4 goin there cs i was reli tired and furthermore...its kinda late la..bt in the end we still went.i mean me n qm went. of course we went la.we couldnt be that heartless rytes.met ard 6.45 den went jp to crack our heads on wad to get for his gift.had troubles though.we wasted like 45 mins there but finally we got his gift;which i shant tell :p. den took the train there.gawd la.it was sosososo long. we were like going from one end of s'pore to the other end which is at pasir ris.but lucky thing i had my mp4 with me so i was entertained.blab crap wit qm in the train.blablabla.we reached there and saw them bbq-ing the foods.we were like ouh okaes.den dey welcumed us.blablabla.helped them oud with the bbq.ate some foods.watched the tv.slack around.den dey were like commenting boud me n qm wearing the same brand jacket.which was really crap la.we couldnt bothered so we just hecked care.den ate some foods again.chit chat a little.den blablabla.it was late already by den so we decided to leave.waited for the bus with them.this is crap ok.we waited like for 1/2 and soon found oud dat the last bus is at 10.05.so crap rytes.so we walked to the interchnge. we were lucky cs we manage to ride the last train.ya by den i was so worn oud.so i slept in the train wit qm.den blabla.within a blink of eye we reached.got home.changed.slept.

what we could have been, Saturday, April 21, 2007.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

MOVE!I NEED TO BREATH!
i'm pissed.
i'm unhappy.
i'm dissappointed.
i'm sick.
i'm tired.
i'm done and over with it.
I'M GASPING FOR AIR!
i cant be bothered.
i couldnt care less.
i'm just too tired and worn oud.
leavemealonefornow

what we could have been, Thursday, April 19, 2007.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

firstly i would like to apologize to fique for not updating asap cs i went to my grandma's place la..we had a gathering..sure i wudnt want to miss the good food dats y..we had a kenduri..so dats y right after the speech day..i went home straight.sorie ya mate!ok basically wad happen ysterdae was dis..woke up ard 8.30am..well i slpt for more than 12 hours ardy wad do u xpect?! den went to switch on the tv straight..wnted to watch some cartoon to release stressi suppose..wadeva..blablabla..kol joyce at ard 9.30 ask her wad tyme is she meeting me..yerhs..den chat chat 4 awhile..put dwn at ard 10..went to had my breakfast..den pack my bags..i ironed my costume n stuffs which took like 1 hour..by den i had to bath ardy..so got ready n met joyce..walked with her..chated n chated boud wad to cpect later..was kind of nervous..cs we reli dunno wad g n yuen goona sae..den blablabla..reached skool went up to the hall..den saw g n yuen..dey didnt reli said anything much..dey were doing thier job wich is setting up the mikes..den me n joyce went up to the drama room since we were nt entertained..hahas..den ya..we went to the drama room..annie instructed us to carry the props down..so follwed her orders..den poof!we started our practice..den blabla..by 4 we stopped..had our 'dinner'..took sum pics here and there..then blablabla...changed to my uniform..suppose to meet dat geraldine yap at 4.45..but i cud bother..i wntd to listen to yuen n g's last words..n dey did toughed me..evryone was reli touched n most of them did cry..some..not all..den g was like saying he will rmbr me the guy who was hard to worked with but still i manage to improve n he said dat was good..den he said he was flattered by the way i acted on syf..i was realli very honoured cs he was my mentor..at least i did sumthing 4 him to be proud of :) den yuen speech was fine..as emotional as awaes..i was reli touched by evry werds she said..i reli appreciate it yuen!i will definitely wont 4get u!thw dramtians were all very touched by then..i was crying quite badly sey..shitme. well it maybe our last tyme meeting them wad!den yerhs..daya gaf her speech..she was gifing us werds of encouragement..ya..i will definitely keep dat in mind.n ya 'mom', i will definitely will not 4 get u n will definitely miss u!!!!we acted for like so long..we were reli very close n i reli enjoyd ur company..we learned n grew tgt..the piece we showd on syf n speech day was great! we were like real mom n dad.i definitely will miss acting wit u so much n dun 4get me yerhs!okok..den i gaf a speech..at the rate i was talking i was like going to cry ardy..i duno y bt i cnt hold on my tears..shitme.den zaima gaf her speech n she was crying..argh!dat made my situation werst.wenevr she cries she makes me cry too..n zaima rmbr ya!i am ur no.1 fan!!!!!hahas. ok den ya..left the drama room went to rehearse my speech for the cd wall n blablbla..took my award..nothing much..den went to drama room to change..blablabla..aza,carisse,piqa,zaima& santhea gathered in a circle n they were toking boud somethings wich were rather..i tried nt to hear as i didnt want to get too emo den i cudnt deliver as a father for my acting later..so yarhs..we went dwn to the hall..blablabla..we had a group hug..gosh.it was weird ok.bt still it was motivating.ok den acted..we did excellent as awaes..the speakers n mikes are now soo much bttr..we did very well..we definitely blew evryone off thier seats..den wen we were done..we went out of the stage..den sharul gaf me ahnd shaked..proud to be acting wit him n the rest too..i hud daya..n zaima den the rest were hugging n crying tgt..blablalbla..brought the things dwn to the truck den went to drama room..sharul gaf a speech..it was ok la..hahas.den shafiqah gaf a speech..ya..agreed to her..den took sum pics..n ya..dats it.dat was the last tyme i will be performing for the skool.i reli wish all the best to the juniors.n i hope we'll recieve good results for our syf.bt dun worry we'll be back.once again thanks g n yuen.i reli am proud of the whole drama inc.i will miss u daya.i will miss drama inc.lastly.i lovedramainc!

what we could have been, Sunday, April 15, 2007.

Friday, April 13, 2007

jus woke up..so tired sey..didnt had a gd slp for the past few days..furthermre nid to prepare mahs.2moro is our final practice n performance..so must be realli prepared.we'll do good aniwae.well.let us jus pray 4 in case..hahas.er todae gt nothing much hppnd..i awaes sae dat evrytyme.reli..theres nothing much..it was international friendship dae..we jus had some lame ar i mean reli lame activities done in school.i learnt basically nothing -.-. nvm.aniwae we had our focussed test.as usual we'll go to the study corner n study.d'er.den blablabla...nothing so interesting dat interests me..den took out fuocussed test.physics is so pathetic ar..mr chian saed dat we oni learn 1 formula dat os v=ir bt shithole him!practical elctricity is included.he saed dat it is not...when the its like 40% in the paper.shithole him!wadevr.chem was great.hahaks.den met ms geraldine yap..the pregnant teacher la..the one in charge of counsellors..den ya..gt final amendments..n i cnt wait 4 drama tomoro!i cnt wait to meet all the dramatians!i cnt wait to meet all the instructors n teacher in charge!i cnt wait to act!i cnt wait to shout at dat flowery..urh B***H.so yerhs..next tyme peeps.toodles!

what we could have been, Friday, April 13, 2007.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

weets.haks!er..report boud todae..hmm..nothing much realli..er yars..todae was reali tiring..it was so hard 4me to get my butts off my comfy bed.haks!woke up ard 6.20 and went to bath wit my eyes closed.*most of the time*den siap2 left the house ard 7.00.was reli tired.didnt want to attend skool todae bt since i hafent been attending lessons since like tues, i shud go..bt wad the hell la..i missed all the science classes.bt went for physics remedial n met ms ho after dat to noe boud chem ok la..okok..bck to the point..den reached skool blablabla..adem n lynno told me all dat happened wen i wasnt in class.it was so hilarious ok.crap.wadeva.den pe lesson was as per normal.jus as pathetic as always.haks!didnt run dat much todae..my body was like aching la..wadeva it is.den maths was ok..did filing.blablabla..and it was mt!was anxious to noe wad mr zubir thought boud the whole thing.he was like sort of blaming us agian.not surprised.wadeva. all the dramtaians tried to like u noe.rebut to him.bt i dun tink he cared at all..wadeva la..den after that recess..it was fine..f&n was ok..xcept dat we had to stand bcus we were noisy.we were like laughing n laughing all the way..haks!crap rytes.den eng lesson as usual..we were given wksheet to do..crap la..wadeva ok..i like failed my eng focussed test.nvm will do very well in 'n' levels.hmph!den ya la..nothing much after dat..boring la todae..nw blogging and planning to slp at 6..wich is aboud 15mins tyme.wake up ard 7.30 n study my sciences.haish.

what we could have been, Thursday, April 12, 2007.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

the dramatians were EXCELLENT.EXCELLENT.f**k those f***ing AV/ITS who were just simply HOPELESS N COWARDS.we are not to be blame sey.yes true we did admit dat our voices werent clear bt why the f**k must they saed such remarks. wad.its not ez being in drama. in drama talent is wad u nid to make a production successful.all of us gaf our best n i cnt deny dat.we were really good.they dun xpect our voices to be so heard.if they wants a clear perfect sound den.build a theatre den! we were all so tired and werked reli hard for the dae..and all they cud sae was dat.reli it hurts ok..we have to do a second run..and all i knew while i was acting was that i wa sso pissed dat i was practically shouting like i've nvr shoted before to the teachers.xpecialli dat flowery urh..f***ing woman.i was aboud to cry wen i was shouting bt luckily ms wong stopped the whole play..pheww..bt i am satisfied dat i mange to shout my hearts out.i really haf gt nothing to say.i just hope karma will strike to those idiots.i pray hard we'll get a GOLD 4 our syf.we will.may god bless us.

what we could have been, Wednesday, April 11, 2007.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

WE DID VERY3 WELL.d'er.i'm confident.we'll get at least a silver :) no worries. evryone gaf their best.it was seriously damm good.i'm really proud being a dramatian.i sure won't have any regrets.it was worthwhile.

what we could have been, Tuesday, April 10, 2007.

Monday, April 09, 2007

SYF!
the nerves starts kicking again.
i pray hard 4 us.hope we'll get a gold.
i want a gold.better if gold with honour.
i hope we'll do very well.
its our last shot.
after for many months of practicing.
its time.
to show jwss and 'the' man.
what drama's made of.
we can do it.
dramatians wins it all!

what we could have been, Monday, April 09, 2007.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

DESPERATELY DESPERATE 4 THESE;(currently)
- Topman cardigan
- Guess wrist band
- Romance cologne by Ralph Lauren
- Black jeans from Bugis
- Converse high cut shoe
- Gucci specs
- Flip hp
- Famous Magazine

grr.i know its a lame post.bt i just cant help it.i really want all these stuffs sey. nvm i'm slowly keeping my cash.d'er.its my parents who are rich.nt me.nvm. patience does it people.patience.aniwae. ugly betty tonight!yay!imisseveryone!

what we could have been, Sunday, April 08, 2007.

Friday, April 06, 2007

haks!it was wonderful!yesterdae was my birtday and i had a time of my life!okok lets just jump to the climax..gagas.er reached skool..blablabla..evryone congragulate me happie burfdae..class was fine..haks!dat adem go bao toh to mdm sharifah dat it was my b'dae.hahas.so kekek shaking hands wit her sey..wadeva la..den eng..haks!it went well thruout the whole entire time until... i dun rmbr who but sumbody saed dat it was my b'dae..den she had the cheek to gaf the class permission to have a water bash!!!dat bitch!haks.sorrie short commercial!my aunt jus gaf me a b'dae shout out through the radio!!!!kakakas!k continue..den..dada!my classmates came right up to my table and threw water at me..i was so drenched wet!i cudnt run cs they were all crowding around me..so sadly..i jus sat there helplessly..it was like a big pail of water jus spilt onto me!! hahaks.so crappy!my whole unform was wet..n dat includes my undies..shit sey..bt nvm luckily it was p.e dae..so i changed to my p.e le.wen checked into my bag i saw a plastic..and ya..it was my 3rd present!!kakas.qian min was like.dun dun open it yet..its from me n lynno..so i was like..fine..wadever..ok den it was fine..i wanted to donate blood bt sadly..when the doctor checked me she saed dat i cnt cus i jus recovered fever last 2 weeks i must be at least 4 weeks away dats y..so guess my unlucky dae...bt still at least..its the thought dat counts..ya so..watched radia donated blood..hahas.so kekek sey..she was so blanked right after it..but still got the cheeck to grab a handful of chocolates and put inside her pocket..so crap rytes..bt nvm..on the 28 i will donate blood..i will..hmph!so ya..den i met joyce n lynn n qian min in the class after physics lesson..its was like sososo obvious dat joyce was wrapping something 4 me sey..bt i jus kept cool.kakas.wadeva..den went dwn to canteen to wait 4 them..i mean aza,ciara,adem n shafiq.wait wait..joke-d n joke-d...kakas.so kekek..wadeva..den ard 4.30 we went out of skool and met them..but pathetically..they were'nt there yet..so ya..we jus sat under the block..by den i was so scared ardy.reli sey..its like..i dun want to get wadeva bash animore sey..so i pestered joyce wad will they be doin and all..and yes..adem n ciara appeared..by den joyce n santhea left 4 their tamil lesson ardy le..den i noticed sharmeen back..it was rather chalky..so went to asked her out of curiousity..she told a grandma story n yerhs..stupidly i trusted her..so dumb rytes..den saw aza..walking towards me..i was like oh..ok..den to just make sure that there wont be another prank..i walked further towards..turned to my right..saw the packet of flour!shit shit shit!!i was like i sa dat i saw dat..den shafiq appeared and ran after me..hahas.so darn kekek sey..den all of us had fun throwing flour at each other untill..this man came..he was like nagging nagging..so crap.he asked 4 our name n ic number..so we were like wadeva sey..cnt be bothered.unless he is the cops or sumting..but hes jus a cleaner supervisor..the thing was dat..he was too..grr..naggy..we understand dat its our fault but do u tink we thought of dat in the first place..we were just trying to haf fun..d'er..wadeva la..cnt be more bothered..den another supervisor came..he was sosososososo much bttr.he warned us..so we understood dat n apologised like d'er rytes..hope we wnt gt ourslves into trouble d'er..bt at least we had fun..bt i dun tink so we will get into trouble.hope so.pray hard le..den it was present opening session..kakas.so kekek..okok..the first gift was aza one..i was reli unsure..den i opened it slowly..tinkin wad it mite be..den yups.he gaf me a frame wit the dices picture printed on it..haks!i was on teary eyes.reli its like..its the dices.the besties whom grew wit me..n look where are we now..we r no more..it hurts in a wae or another.haish.den next was lynno n qian mins present.haks!this one was crappy.it ha so many wrappers and in the end..it was a packet of cxxxxm!kakas.so kekek.wondered how dey lepas.wadeva.it was thoughtful though..kakas. den ya..last was joyce gift.it had a very striking wrapper and ya..it was baby's bottle!kakaks.so cute. i reli appreciate it.cs i noe the trouble u had :)thnx a million joyce!!yesh.basically dats all.its gd enugh 4 me actualli.i reli dun xpect presents.reli.its the thought dat counts.to me,u guys rmbring my burfdae n spending time wit me is reli gd enugh 4me.i dun nid all those expensive presents.wad matters most is here.deep inside your hearts.sincerity.ouhk..enugh of being too emo.k den went home..with such condition..so embarrasing.bt nvm its once in a year thingy you noe..so yerhs..den went bck home..had a hard time scrubbing the dough off my hair especially. used the dishwashing sponge.haks!den siap siap.suppose to mit at 7.45 bt ended up miting at 8. i reache ard 8.10 at ther.qm reached there punctually.not surprised.den waited 4 them ard leisure until 8.30.went to the movies.haks!this is where the pathetic cums.the movie was so lame sey.bt its the lameness that made me laugh.i laughed at only a certain parts of it.nt all. bt yerhs.it was good.den movie ended..blablabla..went to mac.get sum drinks n chat nonsencically. haks!after dat ard 11.30 left jp and went bck home.we did our 'handshakes' n chalo!home swit home!took 243w n reached home bout 12.10.reachd home..changed and went to dreamland..was reli slpy n tired.had avery long dae..n i cnt bilive todae's fridae!!seriusly this the one of the best daes in my life and surely i will nvr forget.the times we all spent together are kept sealed in my heart and i sure wudnt 4get it.its the best dae in my life yet.to santhea, joyce n lynno.i fully understand u guys.though u guys cudnt make it.i reli understnad.as long as u guys rmbr its my b'dae its gd enugh.thnx 4 the presents.all of you.thnxx 4 spending the times wit me n reli. it was a roller coaster ride 4 me yesterdae.thnxx alot!!!!!
ILOVEYOUALL!

what we could have been, Friday, April 06, 2007.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

turning sixteen tomorrow.
celebrating with friends.
appreciate that though.
not realli excited at all.
not implying on my friends.
but it seems like any normal day to me.
i don't know what to expect tomorrow.
i don't know how to react to gifts.
i thanked you all first!!!thank you so much!!!
gifts doesn't matters to me.
well, its the thought that counts.
it's sad to know that you're celebrating your birthday in this kind of situation.
where your network of friends are all torn apart.
i don't know what more to say.
but 1 thing.
I LOVE EVERYONE!

what we could have been, Wednesday, April 04, 2007.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

i got no post todae.just so you guys know.

***HATE ME IF YOU HAVE TO***

what we could have been, Tuesday, April 03, 2007.

Monday, April 02, 2007

i'm getting very pathetic by the day. i know i shouldnt but i'll try to change. i noe my besties hates it wen im pathetic.i noe.im realii sorry 4 being pathetic each and evryday.
*HATE ME IF YOU HAVE TO*

what we could have been, Monday, April 02, 2007.