Friday, March 30, 2007
to sae dat im hurt.no i'm not.i reli duno.wen i read aza blog, was i dissapointed dat he didnt appreciate me.i duno.was it my fault all dis while?wen i read his blog, i rmbr the incident dat hppned todae.will i lose another best fren. i dun blame adem or aza.bt wad adem saed was true.ya.maybe i do have att problem yes maybe i am pathetic.i reli duno wad to do now.i'm reli lost.its reli dissapointing to noe dat u r not as appreciated as much as the rest.i reli duno.i guess the problem all lies with me.at the end of the day wen my frens wanna leave me.i noe myself dat its not their fault but mine.i am pathetic n over.i wudnt be surprised if one dae my best frens get sick n tired of me n jus leave me alone.i want to chnage bt its already a habit.a habit dat takes time to chnage.but time is killing me.i duno la.i reli do mi9ss aza.evn though i noe i havent been doing a gd job as a best fren i do still love him from the bootom of my heart.i may not show u but reli i do care 4 u.i duno aza, wen u left i rather feel so empty.bt since u saed its 4 ur own good then i guess i have nothing much to sae.the dices haf been a great cliques of frens.u guys complete my row of frens.i noe sumtymes or all the tyme i am rather pathetic by the wae i tok or express my self but i guess its just me.true enough i hate myslf for doing it but its jus happens.its a habit as i said.i noe i'm rude n inconsiderate sumtymes, but i guess i jus like to butt in any situation. i duno wad more.i noe now im like in ur bad boots and if u guys evr haf any thoughts of booting me out ya.u guys cn go ahead. to whom i will be next i duno.but i have the feeling i will be lonely again..soon..wit nobody.
what we could have been, Friday, March 30, 2007.